Hiatus

Back from BKK, back from camp!

I miss my bolster and bed so much! Not forgetting my rambling AC  >_<

Life has been kind on me, generally. During camp I felt like a loner because I didn't belong to any OGs & our comm members are either absent or really busy and hence, not around. Then there I am hangin' around like a bum.

Things got worse during finale night. Everyone was happily snapping pictures while I'm standing by the side watching. I felt the worst when the friend who was accompanying me was asked to take a picture with her bf (aka the Boss of our camp).

I was really alone, experiencing 'lonely in a crowded room' at full blast. I felt so bad that my heart physically ached a little. Swallowing saliva felt like swallowing a boulder instead. Oh well! What's new right? I hope I don't get used to this.

A small interesting thing happened though. Alexithymic. I wonder if I am being wishful. But then again if it's real, I really have no idea how to handle.